Bimbel oh Bimbel

*Inhale exhale*

Well yeah, Hello!

Actually, I still got some stuffs to be posted about... everything. :P But, this one is urgently need to be posted. I don't know why.

Sekarang, aku sedang berada dalam liburan yang super panjang. Yah, biasa lah pengangguran alumni SMA. Aku udah balik ke Jakarta setelah beberapa hari liburan di Bali dan masih merindukan Yogya :') To be honest, aku sendiri masih menyimpan beban karena gue belum tahu mau kuliah dimana.... untuk pastinya. *sighs*. Buat back up-nya sih udah ada, sebuah universitas swasta baru di Serpong, tapi aku tujuan utama ku adalah ngejar PTN. Itu berarti udah jelas dong aku harus mengikuti serangkaian tes. Secara SNMPTN kemarin gak diterima. 

Sekilas ngomong-ngomong soal SNMPTN, jujur saja aku agak sebel karena yang diterima kebanyakan dari sekolah negeri. Haaaaahhh........... 

Mungkin bener kata orang kalau kamu mau kuliah di negeri, ya SMA harus yang negeri juga. Oke, aku akui kalau swasta minta ampun susahnya! Tapi untuk beberapa alasan tertentu, aku tetap memilih sekolah swasta. I lope you apa adanya stece... *ketjup* Jujur, mau orang bilang sekolah ku adalah sekolah swasta nomor 1 se-Yogyakarta, yang keterima SNMPTN cuma 2 ekor. we te ef...

UGM aja gak ada yang diterima. Beneran dah sekolah gue kena blacklist. :'( Gue yakin dan percaya kalo ini semua gara-gara ada alumni yang menolak untuk masuk PTN. Ada kok tahun lalu. *ngacung golok*

Oke, cukup sebel-sebelannya soal SNMPTN and stuffs. Mau gak mau aku dan teman-teman harus berhadapan dengan serangkaian ujian SBMPTN sampai mandiri (kalau ada). Semangat!

The Times

It’s really in the middle of night, and I suddenly want to write something here. I’m back for writing after many weeks had been stolen for all the try outs and stuffs. I’ve been realllyyyy… hmm, I don’t know. Closer to God? Yesss, deeply. Closer to all my dormitory friends, even closer more than you can know. I’ve been experiencing many things. I’m enjoying every single day in here. It’s like the blessed time I ever had.

A confession

And finally I’ve found my way. It’s not 100 % yet but I’m pretty sure that it’s gonna be the best way that God has showed me. I’ve never been so confident like this but I’m just happy with it. If I tell you guys what my way is, maybe some of you will say that I’m already late to start, even maybe my parents. But I never think that I’m late. So what? God always showed his way on the right time.

You remember when I was being so damn puzzled with all the future and university thing? Remember when I was dying to go to Germany? Remember when I fell in love with French, something that was actually left behind? When I was excited about film school in Europe? When my father didn’t let me to study in Europe, and then when he suddenly opened all the way to Germany, but in the same time I really want to go to France? When It was dark and I couldn't decide anything? It HAS ended already! And my choice is directly to go to...

The Next Challenging Step

Damn, I don't know why it has to be tittled like that, it seems like a huge thing but actually don't hahaha. Well, again and again i must say that it's been a long time since my second post. Hahaha the awkward moment when you actually promise to keep writing a blog but actually don't.

Anyway, it's a great day. I had a swimming practice every friday with a friend, that's good, then visited a watercolor painting exhibition for a while. (It was aweeeesome!) and the rest night i spent with my music, laptop and internet. Here's the next step that i want to tell you, I will try and try and tryyy so hard to be able to

When a blog reminds me what to do

Well, it's a long pouring night. I'm sitting on my bed and trying to get involved with everything around. There were just laptop, headset, cellphone, mini fan, blounyie, and the left over craps. Hahaha I just spent some time with myself and pretty great here. I already just forgot the little fight with me and mom and I had been like downloading, spamming on twitter, reading blogs, buffering, and believe it or not I almost never did something like that in these few weeks. The whole thing I know was just eating and sleeping. Well yeah, sometimes it's good to have some time far from cyber world. :D My lovely sennheiser just back from service center and also my cellphone. So go away you boredom!! :P

What am I gonna talking about here? I don't even know. :P Haha so, sometimes writing can be so hard for me but having a blog always reminds me to write something new. Yeahaha, to be honest it's my 2nd post here but at least I am back to WRITE! *big applause* well, how could a blog can force me to always go back here and write?